well, just got home, and i COULD be working, but instead i rolled a spliff and am watching netflix. fuck netflix and chill its flix and a smoke lolol. nights like this i like to watch mostly dumb shows, currently it's grace and frankie lol. im obsessed wit older ppl. i will say tho, im happy that: a. this is my 2nd blog post in a week. owwww. and b. this is my first spliff since i left at like 1pm today. currently 9:40pm. ya for u that may be like wateva, but for me thats about 5 spliffs i wouldve smoked at my computer all day lol. i think im actually through my burnout, i'm still having fun going out and not feeling guilty about working on music or working at the restaurant. i had genuine fun at zac's bday party. so many ppl came out and it's a cool tradition he's been doing and i feel blessed to be a new addition to that!! i love the scene here. had a nice time chilling wit a power couple too. apparently they don't really talk about being together too much in public, just who sees, sees, so I won't mention who it is but thank you for the ride and proper vibes!! I had to take a moment and really sit back and pat myself on the back for even being considered to be part of a hip hop documentary that Emil is doing for Berta. I worked hard, and it's surreal that I could be a part of something like that. or that ppl even see me in that light. of course yes in my brain im famous and helping my friends sustain by creating an eco system we can all get paid off of. but u know, in scales haha. but in my head we are already sharing the private jet. i just told my manager the other day that im gassing up the jet to send to her so she can get away for the wknd. it'll happen. and i'll look back at this blog entry one day and cry. hope im filming it lolol. i keep saying i wanna film stuff. i even got a whole fkn green screen circle background thing that sits on my chair so i can focus on doing more vids. i can edit them on this big ass imac. omg i still can't blv i got so lucky with this. ok peep this. so i brought my mac laptop to toronto, for minimal work i might need to get done. didn't realize it was on it's last legs, and i used it once and then….kaput. that's it. it just died. we were going to smash it for the IS BIG video but the timing didn't work out. but I was like shit, i guess i gotta sort out a new laptop when i get home. with the $-23 i had in my acct lolol. but before i even got back home, my homie came through with a fckn big ass imac desktop. which is PERFECT because i'm blind, and staring at a small ass laptop all day for the last few years has been. ugh. to say the least. it was gifted, so i can't say who gave it to me. but he knows im VERY thankful!! clutch. talk about the universe. the way i just let that laptop go and was like, meh it'll work out. and it did. ugh this is why some ppl hate me lol. they think my life is easy cuz of things like this happening. but it's all hard work meeting opportunity. If I had not have sustained that relationship i wouldn't have ended up with this computer. and had he not seen my hard work first hand and passion, he probably would have kept it and made money selling it to someone!  so. see what u wanna see. end of the day it shows me who u are more than anything else. fuck im high. so is frankie rn on the show lol. i can't see it yet, just listening, kind of anyway lol. that's why i like shows like these, i can miss stuff. no biggie. its white noise. seriously shout out k the chosen cuz i prob wouldnt be on this blog today again. holy shit ima be on the block. cbc. thats wild. i cant wait. this year is shaping up to be big. i didnt work out today. boooo. or yesterday. but i did walk. ill work out tmrw before i head to the restaurant. i did notice that my right knee feels weird again. loose kinda? i wore my knee sleeve thing today to help me walk proper ish but damn. prob tmi but i thought that hershetea would come back when i got sexually active again. but i'm not lol. but she's back…i mean a difference is that i am open to dating now though. maybe that woke hershetea up lolol. oh ya it's black history month. go learn sumn. go support someone. buy me a coffee on my website if u like! ouu i should update my online store. ok gd night.