it's been a MINUTE. i'm up early because I thought i had an interview at 815am but its actually pm LOL. but i'm hosting a jam session with kinde at 1130am anyway (pretty sure) and I've been itching to write in here for a min. what to say. I mean. I feel like I haven't been celebrating or even writing down my accomplishments. this year was a lot. i've grown. but also just really trying to close chapters in my life with my ex. it's been DRAGGGGING. and watching him straight up lie in a lawyers office was frickin jarring. but we're here. i'm here. anyway, some dope firsts this year that i can think of, i'll hop back on here and just add random stuff that happened throughout the year, maybe that'll help with my recap lolol. 

first time winning an award. 

first time damn im shootin blanks. ill circle back

it was cool kendall gender messed up my name then followed me on IG. we are acquaintances now, not sure if she knows. 

first canadian on the prague pride stage. 

first little tour that wasnt marketed as a tour. lolol. 

first time curating and producing a show

first time doing a comedy set

i really got more into journalism, now writing officially for reverie and cups n cakes. and i did a piece for scene!

can't believe i'm really still not working a 9-5. i took that leap and never looked back. but i bite my nails EVERY MONTH. and somehow it always works out. I only borrowed once for rent. not bad. 

first time building my own curriculum. and its for UNITY youth program. 

i'm on the board for music calgary, black pride yyc, femme wave. 

i sit on a couple review panels as well that I can't talk about. 

I CUT MY LOCS. wow that was this year. yes i cut my locs after growin them for like 6 years, my whole music career has known me with locs. i started this hair journey. when i first cut them off i was hiding under braided styles back to back. but the past month or so i've been really living in my fro and exploring styles. it's so fckn fun. appreciate my hair journey. 

i dated someone. ugh. learned and lived and im proud for puttin myself out there. even joined a dating app that ive since deleted lolol. it's not for me. i still prefer to meet ppl in the wild or just be solo. im really. good solo. also im outside all the time. i just need to be ok dating in my world. i used to have rules around dating, no one in the music scene, no one who doesn't understand my POC trauma…and no one who is friends with someone i already know. well turns out, this city is too small for all them rules LMAO. so now IM OUTSIDE. staying in my boundaries and exploring cuz i'm fine being hurt anyway, my support system is strong. lets go outside fuck it. 

Kimmortal wore my fckn merch on stage and also said they wanna hang and create with me. sooooooo i dunno….i'm GEEEEKING. i dont care if they see this one day, they know what they did. it was huge for me. in my city?? come on. and i now go to filipinx karoake every month. salamat. 

im not sure what the hell virgos were goin thru this year, i thought last year was bad cuz i lost 3 ppl. well…2. the 2nd one is good riddance. but like, loss and grief and anger all the same. in the same year i did a reality tv show. bruh. the highs and lows are ROLLERCOASTER levels. 

lately ive been wanting my creative outlet to be writing to heavy club beats, anger almost. i still need to get it out, but i cant talk about stuff yet, so i need to not write and waste dope beats, on something i cant put out until court is done and that could be years. lol. so i write with no beat, just to get it out. but i want the angry beats for my next project. anyway. its a loop i cant get out of rn

my next album is slowly building in my head. but havent made any movements towards creating it yet. im still pushing my album from last year. but i got some shit….oouuuuu. i might put it out on the 2nd year anniversary or sumn. or maybe my bday. i dunno. 

i can't think of anything else rn but there was a lot this year. and the year is not done yet. when i think of more, I"ll try to come back sooner than later. whoops lol.