this memory is stuck on my brain today so figured id just write it out. maybe its because i was on the but for the first time in forever, so it just brought me back to some foul memories in my life lol. anyway here we go. 

so on my 5 year anniversary, i found out that my ex's friends had no clue that we were together lol. ya. 5 years. his friends thought that I just brought him to the country for paperwork and i caught feelings or something and I just get upset for no reason. i was in shock. we had gone to BC for a nice get away with a nother couple, they didnt know were celebrating an anniversary, they JUST thought it was my bday and my ex REALLY thought he could get thru the wknd withoutj shit blwoing up in his face. wild. but alas, i pretended like i didnt know the whole drive back. omg wait, rewind, i remember buying my bday cake from DQ, and this man wouldnt even get out of the car. and then when we brought it back to the cabin, the 3 of us were there doing a lil bday cake thing, u kno, as one does. and he wouldnt leave the living room. he just said gwan go cut the cake i dont want no cake. i cant blv the situation i was in, but while i was in it, this all just seems normal. like im very much just let ur partner be whoever they wanna be, do whatever they wanna do, and he fully took advantage of that. but that whole day, that trip, was just rude af. i remember he dipped and went and played pool, i wasnt allowed to join lol. yes its my bday and our anniversary…i dunno. i was foolish. clearly. i mean he had a girl living in a house we both own… within a week (prob a few days really) after i finally left him and the house. NUFF SAID. 

anyway, i let my ice cream cake melt in the trunk that day on the way back to the city. i also stayed with him for a few months after that, until one day i finally got “my proof” (like being ridiculed by his friends wasn't enough lol) and i dipped one night. whatever i could fit in my 2 door civic and dipped to edmonton for my year and a half long bender to get out of whatever toxic shit i was under for 5 years. then i started music…the rest is MYstory. 

i cant even say so much about all the shit. theres so much shit. i hope to tell my story one day, but i need to fully understand about defamation and see what i can and cannot say, because he WILL come after me for defamation…if i could pubicly tell u the situation im in RIGHT NOW cuz of this guy…pssh but i cant. legally. so…im venting about old memories for now lol.