ya. like on this little few weeks off of real food, and i realize how much i take it for granted. i guess i kinda asked for this in a way. i've been craving to want to learn more about. my body and food and that relationship. wanting to be more curious about the digestive system. like does that make sense? ive been curious but not like enough to actually find out. so i really want to WANT to do this. ya know? and now i have been forced to lol. omg let me tell u a storrryyy. ok so about 12 days ago i got a weird feeling in my stomach. thought it was something i ate. so i was like ok. tea and lots of water, it'll pass and i can move on. well then, the next day i ate another like full take out meal, think it was vermicelli, and the pain was horrid. i went to riz's rehearsals but couldnt find a comfy way to sit or even stand. i kept jiggling cuz i thought maybe it's just gas and i'll go outside and get it out. but the pain just kept getting worse. my friend decided to facetime me, which just so u know, i only ft with him lmao. immediately he's like wat are u doin, im like oh i'm just rocking back n forth to get rid of this pain in my belly. hes like how long. im like i dunno maybe a couple days i'l be fine. he's like naw bish go to the hospital. im like thats extreme bruh chill lol. he's like at least call health link. ok so i call health link right lol and this bish says call an ambulance. im like meh i dont wanna pay for ambulance and shit and shes like how much is ur life worth im like thats a privileged thing to say and then she broke it down, broke me down lol ugh i took an ambulance bruh. she said they would come and check me out and if im ok, then i dont have to ride with them. well… i ended up at shumir on the thursday night during stampede lol. i waited about 5 hours in the waiting room. then got a room and was in a room for another 3. did a ct scan. that was fckn scary. i almost threw up, but was very happy it was a black person! he guided me through everything so well. except fot the burning, this dude said warm sensation, naw change that to HOT lol. i thought i was going to internally combust and that my body was reacting different than everyone else. lolol. well, surprise, i did not combust. just almost through up but i am determined never to vomit in public lmao. anyway, pancreatitus. ya they let me go with no pain pills or direction besides drink water. which i couldnt do the whole time in hospital cuz of ct scan i guess. so i get out at 8am ish. i sleep for a few hours, and then get ready to hit the coke stage with riz friday. pop some tylenol and advil and hit the stage. its funny cuz im pretty sure i was slick enough that no one saw me. but at some points i was behind the screen on stage just curled over in pain lol. at one point i was so nauseas i stepped off side stage and just sat outside doing breathwork for a whole song lol. but we did it! so i left stampede right away, saw a girl selling lemonade on the side of the road, thought it was a good idea to chug it cuz i was thirsty and hungry lol. then met my parents at the food truck and thought oh yes, a smoothie would be good and healthy. well….it was orange fkn creamsicle. turns out. thats bad lol. i ended up back in the hospital..lawl. but a “real one” as per nurses at chumir suggested. so i went to rockyview. waited for an ultrasound to see if i hve gallstones. another black guy was working the ultrasound! i felt so taken care of lol. no gallstones. yay. i think the best possible scenario out of whatever this is, worked out well. i just fckn miss food. i'm on bland foods for a couple weeks. 

but in the process ive been really paying attn to what diff foods do what. introducing one at a time, so far i can have plain rice, soup, cheerios, watermelon, anyway u get it. oatmeal and shit. it's really cool though, now putting those bland foods together to make an almost non bland dish hehe. like using the soup broth to make rice. mmmmmm. omg also the fact that my most popular story on instagram was me in the hospital. i was shooketh that shit got almost 1000views and the most my stories get is like 300 on a good day lmao. ugh, misery loves company for real i guess. i was like shit i shouldve put one of my songs on that story or sumn. 

anyway im exhausted but we still here. in two days im hosting the folk fest stage omgeeeeee. i will hve my approved snacks on deck and some water so i will be fine. but i dont think i have it in me to network this festival like i usually do this wknd. plus i have rehearsals on friday in edmonton. wait lemme check when thundercat is. omg nooooo. its friday night. ok well i guess i will see him another time fingers crossed. i think im goin back to lay down for a bit.