well. thanks to k the chosen, because he posted about his blog today and tagged me and it reminded me, oh shit ya i gotta blog too. and in true form, i was good on this for a minute and then it fell off again lol. and also in true form, I have shit to do, but i'm here with my thoughts sending it out to the world again. anyway. im so effin happy 2024 is done. even tho everything is usually just another day to me, for some reason, just the simple fact i dont have to write 2024 anymore, i dunno, it lifted some shit for me. i'm sure a numerology expert can explain why. but I know personally i had a shit year and the best year ive ever had. so, ya. i'm not really ready to talk about it but i'm open with most of it. well sure, for the few ppl that read this, lets let it out lol. well what happened last year without readin my past entries to prompt my memory, well a lethbridge pioneer passed away and i'm still trying to understand that. it also happened at a time i was without my phone for 10 days, yet i felt it so bad that i was crying on set and couldn't figure out why. one of 2 of my exes died, but then a month later my mini me committed suicide and the whole thing is so effed up that i'm still mad about it. so mad that i cant even write about it yet. i've never been that upset. but u know, compartmentalize. thought divorcing my ex after being separated 8 years would be easy, thought he'd somehow change to reasonable I guess, but he's still the same and it's still. fckn. ongoing. divorce CAN be simple, but not with this incredible individual, and I cant legally say shit about that so im scared to even write anything about that. so ya, the stress went through my body. i threw my back out AGAIN, and the same time my knees were doing a weird thing that i'm currently avoiding. i'm happy to say now, in the current state, i'm ok. i'm dealing. therapizing. and pushing through all at the same time. even opened myself up to dates! haven't gone on any, but u know, my mind's there lolol. Oh, also found out my grandma was a slave to my grandpa's family…which is pretty wild and don't really feel like diving into THAT too deep. smh. I burned out last year, and denied it for super effin long. i declared myself a full time artist, but forgot winter is mad fckn slow so i'm picking up shifts at the restaurant to make rent and feel backwards every time i perform BBBO. just remembering that I wrote it for others, not me. I started actually cutting back on the weed intake. so far not so bad, def saving a bit of money. don't judge too hard yall but i was over an ounce a week. yep. i've since cut it down to 20g a week. if i can get it down to 10g a week I'd be a happy gyal, but also not gonna punish myself too bad. i'm also on a health journey. again. this time though i'm not on a crazy diet or anything, i'm just being bougie with my food choices and mixing short high intensity workouts with my yoga. my back feels better. knees are decent. i aint 20 lolol. good things that happened though? well i made it into a vision board publication! featured in exclaim this year. i remember visibly shaking when jess told me at folk fest and i was tryna stay focused but holy shit. i was on the cover for the first time solo! and i got to smoke and it was a sick cover. being photographed by shannon. WHAT. so ya. thats dope. i got invited to interview on the block cbc, which i'm flying to film in a couple weeks. I got to guest host for the key of a which plays on sirius xm! also getting played on a show like that is also on sirius xm is dooope. oh ya, dropped an album ive been working so fckn hard on for 4 years. got to open for cadence weapon. nominated for my first award ever and got to perform. got to film a short fckn movie for a music video by JB Visualz and Vince Raquel!! I moved into my dream home. got to be in a tv show. got casted as one of 6 women for the Shades documentary series that premieres for CIFF every year. I joined the board of directors at Music Calgary,  when haviah said “bottom of the earth with the album of the year”. i felt that so much i cried. i also cried the first time i heard the album and the outro came on “i manifested this” i was in tkaronto looking out a window and was just so thankful. i dunno. like i said. so many highs, yet the lows were sooo low.  i still feel like im forgetting some things i'm sure of it actually. but like. im tired. and i need to update the links on my website, bandsintown, etc for my upcoming shows. OH YA, and i might be a journalist and dj now. also still trying to figure out how to give back to my community recurringly. maybe a radio show?